10 december 2010

tat day Gan come back from singapore
he call me go out lim teh~
tat day i already back 2 segamat~
i reached about 1 o clock~
then i go out 2.30 p.m~
huh~juz back, go out again~
he fetch me go to HANG OUT to take lunch~
eat about 20++
after this,we go to SECRET RECIPE~~
i never go there before~
this is the 1st time^^
we call tiramisu cake and New york cheese cake~
i think these cake are better than others~
Gan told me many thing about the marketing~
he told me many things about business~
i can get many knowledge from him~
so appriciate these knowledge~
very thankful~
then we chat with kong choon and xue jun~
they both come out about 5.30~
we chat until 6 oclock~
then we back~~
eat baout 50++
Gan treat me~so long time go out no need use money^^
..........................................
i dont know what HE thinks...
but he feel happy, i will give up...
i will more concentrate on my work and will nt think 2 much about him...

Holiday...

闲啦~~为什么放假都是这样闲的。。
不过叻，还好童那天有回来。。
我们去庆祝霖的生日~~我们以donnut代替蛋糕~~
好久好久好久好久。。。。。
我们四个没聚在一起了。。。。
好高兴，但是叻。。。
大家都很难有共同的话题，也很少有共同的回忆。。。
大家都说着自己现在的生活。。。
嘴巴上都说着彼此都不认识的陌生人~
没办法，人没有理由一直留在永远不变的生活里~~
偶尔能聚一聚~也是一件很开心即满足的事~
而且我们四个都没一起打羽球过。。
就那天一起打~
就这样结束了我们的聚会~~~
打球当天晚上，我也有跟元，贤，童，敏去喝茶
我们去coffee corner，喝完了他们又有些不要去唱歌~
就next round去魔力~又喝~
喝到想吐了~哈哈~~
哎~~~~~~~~~
不懂成绩考得好不好~~
希望4flat的我，不知能不能做得到~
世界上没有容易的事，只是自己肯不肯去面对罢了~~
对，不应该逃避~~
运气。。并不存在的
他只是一个人类把自己的失败推卸在运气的身上。。
只是拿来安慰自己。。
我的表现就要看这次的成绩了。。
他是唯一我能在家里抬起头的理由了。。。
3.75 3.75.....一定要~~
虽然期望是高了一点，也有可能失望会越高。。
但是这可以让我更加努力，失败了没关系
再来多一次，下次会比上次做得更好~~
一定会~~我是谁~~~晓璇叻~~~
我一定能承受~~~虽然读akaun不是我想要的~
我比较希望读arkitek~但是我知道我自己能力不足~
就放弃了吧~还没开始读就先放弃了~刚才说完自己可以
现在叻。。。哎~~~
算了，过去了就不会再回来了~~~忘了吧~~
恋爱叻~~
哎~~~也放弃吧~~
自己的学业都搞不定了
还学人家谈什么恋爱，谈屁啦你~~~
自己美不如人，学业不如人，关心不如人，讲话不如人。
安慰不如人，脾气不如人，知识不如人，常事不如人。。
什么都不如，就算有人要，自己也不要自己。。
这么失败。。。只会说自己不如人。。
但是在这里埋怨又没什么用的~~
可是埋怨几句也好吧。。闷在心里会爆炸的。。
单身好，单身好~~
我都不知该怎样去处理自己的感情事~~
差劲~~
所以除了学业，我也没有别的选择了。。
父母花钱给我升学，就要好好努力。。
至少有努力过。。。。
sem2加油^^
all the best~~~

lalala

where is my yippee modus vivendi??
tired la~
still got many practical need 2 do~
szien~
tommorrow wanna hang out with my housemate~
KL trip~
1 day~
haha~
hope have a nice day~~^^

祝福

不知道自己怎么了~
当听他说会来马六甲时，我想要见到他~
可是，当天刚好我也有出去~同时都在注意身边有没有他的出现
但是，走了那么久还是没有见到他。。
还蛮失望的。。。
可是，见到他了又能怎样呢。。
想要跟他说话又不是，不跟他说话又不是
见到面又不知如何是好。。不见面也好。。
至少在彼此心中会留下以前美好的印象。。
我们的中间已经渐渐的隔着一条陌生路线。。
感觉他已经不是我以前所认识的他，他变了。。
变得我也比不了解他了。。当然我也变了。。
不再是以前的我。。
可能以前时常敷衍他。。导致现在他也一样敷衍我。。
他知道他所说的我都不听。。
他还蛮了解我的，从来没人那么地了解我。。
他也非常体贴，在我认识所有男生之中，
他对我最好。。
还记得，我中四生日时他折了九十多个心形送给我。。
情人节时，只有他送我巧克力
第一次收到的情人节礼物。。
我非常非常珍惜。。
不管去哪里，他都会想到我。。
一定会买东西给我，关心我。。还有很多很多回忆。。
一时想不起那么多。。
但是我却对他忽冷忽热的。。
真的有点对不起他。。
除了对不起，还是对不起。。
虽然他有点保守，但是我都知道他为我好。。
开始时，对他都有好感。。
不知怎么的，认识久了，就没有那种感觉了。。
他所做的一切我都不喜欢了。。
当他说以后都不找我了，我觉得非常非常伤心。。
从来都没那么伤心过。。
可是我都不觉得我喜欢他。。。
根本就是没喜欢阿。。
也许是习惯了他在我身边。。
有些事情都不应该拖拖拉拉,
到最后不止伤害了自己，也会伤害了别人。。
我以后都不会那么做了。。
会害到不该伤害的人。。。
现在真的很希望他好好珍惜自己。。
不要自甘堕落。。
不要把自己的前途给毁了。。
天，帮我祝福他每天快快乐乐。。
希望他可以找到爱他，珍惜他的人。。
也希望他更爱自己。。

受不了~~

够了够了~~
功课那么多干嘛！！！
多就算了~~还那么难~~~
想到头脑都快爆了，最后还是没有答案~~~
为什么！！！
因为笨！！
懒！！！
没有用心！！
压力超大的~~~~
年终考试又要到了~~~~
等死的拉~~~
才发觉自己并不是读书的料。。。
只是死读。。
最终死的是自己。。。。
才发觉很多事我只是一知半解，并没有真正去了解。。
而且发觉朋友们都离我好远好远。。。
大家所想的东西，所讲的东西，都不一样了。。
在马六甲，宿舍的朋友渐渐也显示出他们不好的一面了。。
突然非常非常想念昔加末的好朋友。。
当然，他们也有他们的朋友了
以前跟元他们不熟，也是静静的，觉得无聊
现在这感觉又来了。。
昨天跟霖他们的朋友出去，突然觉得我是多余的
对，我就是多余的。。
好后悔，早知道不要去~~
我哪里知道他们有叫不认识的阿~~
haiz~~
damn~~
压力压力！！！！！！！
who can help me???
omg!!

Day day

haiz....
today whole day at hostel..
boring~~~
walao ,today my com dont know y format itself!!
my half things disappear!!
hate!!
fortunaly,
i save my assignment marketing&prensentation of moral in pendrive already~
if no!!I will die!!
but my sdo delete already T.T
haiz...
yesterday, we went to eat ikan bakar~
nice 2 eat^^
now i know my life already become stress...
tat day i T.T coz i didnt know how 2 complete my account job
stress!!!
I cant lose again!!
I dont want lose!!!
win will bless me!!!
I should improve!!
i wont 2 be a loser!!!
I will success 1day!!
wait!!!

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pressure!!!
test!!!
assignment!!!
tutorial!!!
quiz!!!!
shit!!!
i want giv up!!!!
crazy!!

20 jun 2010,1st day register at KAMSIS
I think i will stay with Malay ppl
but i got shock coz when i open door ,all chinese ppl same hostel with me
i feel happy and excited!!
my roomate chanari fron perlis,Liew bei kee from jb,and chan poh fung from batu pahat
another girls are chan wen yi from jb,tu kath wen from kulai,chin choi foong&chai woon yee from perak,sonyca from sarawak&tan ai lik from kelantan
we all come from different state~
fate~~~
1st week, we got orentation week~
so enjoy and happy in this week
i felt no stress and become more freedom~~
no control from anyone~~relax~~
i think i made true choice~~
study at POLITEKNIK MELAKA,i can learn many thing
Then,i recognise other friends(boy)
chong zhi how from yayasan, gan jia en ,labis,ng liang yi,these 3 ppl form segamat
i nver think that got ppl same hometown with me
so happy~~
the 1st boy i recognise is goh bing shen from butterworth,pulau pinang
he is a good man,he very care all friends,and he is smart
then,裕权from jb,lit wen from tangkak,guo yi from perak,jia rong from pahang,kent fron sabah,
lee han &qi xian from malacca~~
they giv us many happiness
and we feel happy togather with them
especially,qi xian,裕权，zhi how or lee han
sometimes we will play badminton togather
sometimes we will go shopping,play bowling,snooker,cinema
very enjoy in my life~
but money also very "enjoy" in my lifeT.T
every free time, we will hang out
either by taxi or deliver by qi xian
25 julai 2010
3 ppl celebrate birthday togather
me,qi xian &裕权
coz my birthday on 26 julai &qi xian 0n 28 julai
that day we celebrate at dream box~
wow~so happy!!
we all enjoy in singing~~
sing about 4 hours~
so nice^^
after that, we want go 2 eat steamboot
but many ppl cant go to city coz no taxi
so we back Kamsis eat cake
we buy 2 cakes~one tiramisu&another1 is coffe
so excited~~~^^
26th julai ,my birthday
i receive many greeting from my friends
24th julai i also go back segamat celebrate with my fond friends
torng make up & set my hair
i like it^^
thx torng make me become beautiful and diffferent
very TQ~~
26 that day,zhi how send and talk 101 birthday greeting 4 me
besides that, my classmate sing birthday song 4 me togather
i never got this memory before~~
a little bit touch in my heart and grateful
my poli friends giv me a headphone that i was dream day by day
finally,they realise my dreams~
wakaka~
they know my nose got many blackheader but now still cant dsappear altough i use many product~~
so they giv me a product blackheader remover from SASA
very appriciate them giv me an unforgotteble memory~~
TQ all!!
days by days....
i feel that our roomate become gab
and cannot stay togather happy already..
some ppl change~~
hope they will not quarrel one day..
we cannot be selfish
we must respect other ppl & mind of ppl
these all i learnt from my life now
haiz~~
no need think so much
vitally important~~
we have yippee modus vivendi before
we must happy in our life~~
happy can dissolve many problem~~
think positive~~
my life~~~~gambateh~~~^^

car test

today................
finally。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
pass jor!!!!!!
thx god bless me~~
i m the 1st....
do not know how 2 do...
nervous....
scare....
i try 2 calm down....
but still cant...
fortunatelly.....
stress......gone...
1 o'clock...
went out with friend...
we all gather at nanyang coffee shop...
we took photograph togather..
then we went k box..
sing song sing song
then we went upwell by wu hao's car
that is camry...
so rich...
comfortable...
luxury...
my dreams car... luxury car~~
i want u~~~wait me!!
then we went moli again..
yam cha again...
then we back home lo~~
then thx all and appriciate all wishes and support from my friends
thank you all~~~

celebrate jen sen'birthday

yesterday...
morning...
i learned drove car..
when last round..i failed.. coz no off the air cond.~dead engine 4 times!!!
so dissapointed~~haiz~
12 o'clock... i went out torng&jie&ling~
we went 2 River.. i ordered very very very spicy noodles ..
regret。。。
spicy until tears&snivel also come out..
just eat 1/4 only..so waste food & money~haiz~
consequently,i hungry 4 whole day~
then we went 2 torng's house~
4eyebrow shapping~
after this, i went 2 work lo
till................................night...
was raining...
amor fecth me&min&torng...
almost accident~~at junction~
we all got shocked!!
fortunately,amor didnt drove fast.. if no....habis cerita in my life~~choi~
then we went to moli&k-box 2celebrate ying xian'birthday
she celebrate early~ we sing until 12 o'clock..
back home~~

方大同nothing gonna change my love 4 u~

if i had to live my life without you near me
the days would all be empty
the nights would seem so long
and you will see forever oh so clearly
i might have been in love before
but it never felt this strong
our dreams are young and we both know
they take us where we want to go
hold me now
touch me now
i don't want to live without you
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you oughta know by now how much i love you
one thing you can be sure of
i never ask for more than your love
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you oughta know by now how much i love you
the world may change my whole life through
but nothing's gonna change my love for you
if the road ahead is not so easy
our love will lead the way for us
just like a guiding star
i'll be there for you if you should need me
you don't have to change a thing
i love you just the way you are
so come with me and share the view
i help you see forever too
hold me now
touch me now
i don't want to live without you
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you oughta know by now how much i love you
one thing you can be sure of
i never ask for more than your love
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you oughta know by now how much i love you
the world may change my whole life through
but nothing's gonna change my love for ....
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you oughta know by now how much i love you
one thing you can be sure of
i never ask for more than your love
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you oughta know by now how much i love you
the world may change my whole life through
but nothing's gonna change my love for you~~~~
真好听~~

开学

一个礼拜的orentasi好快就结束了。。
在哪里就是新的环境，也是新的开始。。
当我一踏进paduka时。。
一句话~geng~
那里的学生超自由的~迟到了没人抓~
唱国歌。。小声到。。。
礼堂。。。是三间课室连起来。。无言。。
厕所。。。味道“香”~而且很多“金”山~不能琐~没有水可冲~
bilik tayang。。热到。。
makmal komputer 是最喜欢的一个地方。。只有哪里有冷气。。
sukaneka时，被senior画到整个脸五颜六色~
不过还蛮enjoy的。。不错啦。。senior也ok~
在那里认识到很多不同学校的朋友~~很开心~
他们也很会讲笑~
慢慢的还蛮适应那里的环境了。。
but i still miss our smk bandar putra~
coz there more comfortable~
everyone complaint again&again..
i want change 2 melaka already..
hope can get a good result..
alone go there..so scare...
i must be brave~
今天学第二次车，学里面咯~
我先驾，然后到诗敏。。
parking 没问题，上岭就死火咯。。
敏就够力。。一直溜。。clutch 磨到有臭味了。。
结果。。给uncle从学车场讲到回家。。
beh tahan..做么有这样啰嗦的人啊。。。。

lim teh

today go out lim teh with jie,min i drove 1st~he teach me how 2 u-turn lo~ so long time didnt touch car already~ i m very happy~~ then,change sher min lo~ we all so scare~coz,torng jie be our driver~ we go 2 macdonald 1st but there so many people if want buy food must be in a long queue~~ consequently,we change 2 marry brown~ we stay there about three hour~ then,we chat lo~ nth 2 do~ sher min wants yong jie teaches she drive car lo~ we go 2 ioi learn lo~ she didnt know how 2 drive~ after jie teach sher min
she know a litter bit already~ many joke when she drive car~haha after this we went home~ so
boring~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

工作后的心情~~

yes~~我终于恢复自由了~
做工期间真需要有良好的人际关系~~
原本在做工时认识了很多part time 的朋友
可是叻~~他们只做暂时的~全部都走完了~
三月就我一个人吃饭~
寂寞~~
不过还好叻~有辉陪我吃饭，因为他又回来做一个星期~
哇咔咔~~
还有一个就是兴咯~
做工学到蛮多东西，可以知道这世界上有多么不同的人类~
就是不同的顾客，我们就要以不同的方式去招待
就算遇到刁蛮的顾客，也必须脸带笑容去招待他们~
因为顾客永远都是第一的~~
还有就是要记得货放哪里，还有没有剩货什么的~
月尾叻还要点货咯~~
有时是闷到~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~想睡觉~~
轻松的工作嘛~
supervisor其实也蛮好的~只是有些人不喜欢他~
只要把他交代的事情做好就不会骂人了~~
那些aunty有时也很会讲笑~但是他们讲他们的~
我也不知道要跟他们说什么~静静就好咯~
毕竟年龄也差太远了~没共同的话题~也可以说我不会沟通啦
哈哈~
今天就去听theory咯~还有pratical~
有点闷~
至少可以动到车了~哇咔咔~

那天跟朋友去kl晚还真开心叻~~
难得我们四个可以一起去了~
拍了很多照片~也吃了很多好吃的东西~~哇咔咔~
不过叻~~
我还是必须回到这里做工~~除了做工还是做工~
很闷得拉~~还有两个礼拜要闷下去~~哎~~
去kl最好~要几点睡就几点睡~要睡几迟就几迟~~要去哪里就去哪里~~
没人管~~爽~~哎~~~
现在成绩又出了~这样的成绩不知该高兴还是该伤心~~
每次都是这样的成绩拉~~还是一样烂~~一点光荣也没有~~
家里的人最看扁我了的咯~~因为我最差~~bo huat~~==
现在烦恼不懂要去哪里读~~kolej肯定没得读了~~
就只好读政府的咯~~也好~就当省钱吧~~
很烦的啦~大了都不好的~~什么东西都要考虑~~
考虑了还是一样做不出决定~~
哎~~认命吧~~~~~~~

今天跟敏和童去买新年衣~~
到了那里两个店员招待我，不停地嶊销他们的服装
他们拿了十多件不同的服装给我试，有点尴尬，
我就试试，结果到最后只买了两件衣~
过后去别间店买了一件裤
买好了我们就去鞋店看看，敏竟然买罗马高跟鞋~~
她变了好多，头发又染色，不像以前我们认识傻傻的敏咯~
哈哈~~不过他穿那双变得成熟而且高挑
童叻，就蛮可怜的，想要买的鞋都没有适合他的
过后我们去逛了几间，我和童就卖了和敏差不多一样的
可是我们的比较便宜~~便宜敏的十多块~~哈哈
不过他也终于找到适合的鞋了，不然很多鞋他穿得不是很好看
因为他的脚太瘦了~~
过后买完了就回家，童还要去做工~~
新年已就应该算买完了吧~~

昨天晚上我跟敏，童，捷，兴去喝茶~~
我们去paya pulai的一间马来人的汉堡摊~
还蛮便宜的，special的两块半~
捷讲了很多他以前去kem的事情，他说第一次见到那样特别的厕所~
厕所的大便竟然是堆座如山，可以跟kinabalu山比~
哈哈，好夸张噢~
而且还有人两只脚踏在两侧的墙壁来上厕所
真高境界啊。。。原来还有这样的上厕所方式
太不可思议了~~
讲了这么多好笑的事，真的很开心~
希望捷能真正的开心~~
差不多喝了一个小时就回家了~~

哎哟哟~每天都要做工，一点自由都没有了~
最近不懂做么酱衰，好派不派尽然派到男装底裤部门
哎~算了算了~而且回家时还要关灯！！！！
我一个女子去关灯，敏做不一样的时间就没有人等我了~
好怕有一天被关在里面~choi~最好永远都不可能发生~
好累噢，好想能够回到学校跟朋友聊天的日子~
朋友们之间刚来刚去的，时间又过得快，而且又开心~
现在在每天面对底裤，而且顾客少，每天都在拍苍蝇~
不然就是发呆，吃饭有时就一个人吃~哎~寂寞卡~